Baby Steps part 2

If I do not do the works of My Father, do not believe Me; but if I do them, though you do not believe Me, believe the works, so that you may know and understand that the Father is in Me, and I in the Father. (John 10:37-38)

As far as I know, this is one of the only times that Jesus ever invited people to not believe Him. I find that significant enough to look deeper to see what elicited such a strange statement.

It revolves around the issue of works – a sore spot for me in the religion in which I was raised. In my mind the idea of works was mostly connected with perfectionism, the striving of each person to eliminate sin (bad things in deed or even in thought) from the life to get one's self ready for Jesus' return. There was little talk of maturity but a great deal of emphasis on external performance. Because of this preconditioning my mind and heart has some real triggers that go off related to many religious words that have required a great deal of healing and rewiring that is still ongoing.

The answers however, are not found in going to the other extreme as so many of my friends have chosen to do who grew up in the same environment as I did. I do not blame them for doing that and I too seriously considered that option for a time. Yet too much of religion nearly everywhere I turn is shaped much more by reactive fears based on trying to NOT be like some other religion that has underlying issues that need to be corrected, rather than by carefully seeking for what is original truth. This is one of Satan's most successful schemes to keep people from coming to a true knowledge of the truth as it is in Jesus.

Now, after years learning to deeply root my beliefs in the Word of God and learning to listen more acutely to the guidance of the Holy Spirit in that context, it is becoming less confusing and intimidating to revisit many of the things that previously turned me off so quickly. I now discover time after time as I come to these previously troubling passages that they are now full of life, of instruction and very often do not mean at all what I assumed they meant or as taught to me by others.

But as I was saying, some words have real issues associated with them so that even today with many of them I have to intentionally force into the open my feelings connected to them to expose them to the light of increasing revelation as I have been exposed to it over recent years. I have discovered the value of placing old ideas that were distorted in my past into a new context of the revelation of God from the life of Jesus, and I believe this is the only safe means of squaring religious terms with the real truth they were originally intended to convey.

Sometimes I find that a word may mean something quite different when I look it up in the original language. In this instance that is not the case. The word translated 'works' means pretty much that, although it could be translated 'deeds' just as easily. But clearly Jesus intended to mean His external deeds and treatment of those around Him by choosing this word. So what I want to explore is why Jesus invited people to take an intermediary step toward believing that He was the real Son of God while not at first embracing that fact up front. He allows people freedom by not feeling pressured to believe in His divinity while still inviting them to explore that possibility by evaluating His life and comparing that to what God is like.

But it is at this very juncture that a real problem emerges. Nearly everyone I know has screwed up ideas about what God is like to begin with. In fact, that very problem is precisely why Jesus came to this earth in the first place, to reveal what God is really like to a world filled with lies and misconceptions and misapprehensions about Him. So if God was already deeply misunderstood and Jesus came and acted just like God, then obviously Jesus would be misunderstood just the same – and that is exactly why they rejected and killed Him in the end.

Our natural beliefs about what God is like and how He treats sinners lies at the root of all sin and sinful behaviors. It is the inherent lies about God that were implanted into the very psyche of the human race that caused our first parents to act very defensively in fear and shame immediately upon being approached by God about what had just happened. As a result, our hearts are now predisposed to assume that God is out to condemn us, to pressure us to conform to His rules or any other number of distorted notions about what He is like found in the human heart.

The point is that the real truth about God can never be found by looking inside ourselves to discover God by what we assume and feel about Him internally or by basing our beliefs on the opinions of those who claim to represent Him in religion. The only safe way for anyone to find the real truth about how God feels about and relates to His sinful children is to observe carefully and thoughtfully the life and spirit and disposition revealed in the way Jesus treated people like us. Only in this way is there any hope of having our own false assumptions exposed and replaced with attraction toward the One who's heart is only full of love towards us and wants to save us from our fears and lies about Him.

These men that Jesus was facing in this passage were likewise filled with false ideas about God. Sadly they were people who were the most convinced that they knew the truth about God and in their minds their version of God was far more accurate than what Jesus was purporting about Him. Because of this they could see little truth in what Jesus was saying about God and strongly resisted believing His claims about a loving, forgiving, compassionate Father longing to embrace all His wayward children back into intimate fellowship with Himself.

Their view of God was firmly rooted in a picture based on stern obedience, rigid conformity to multiplied regulations and an earned love based on high performance and compliance with religious ideals. The idea that religion might be more oriented to what is in the inner chambers of the heart more than outward appearances came as something repulsive to them, humiliating and even intimidating. They did not want their inner ugliness and selfishness to be exposed to anyone after having spent years convincing themselves and each other that all God expected was perfection of lifestyle and conformity to His rules. They felt threatened by a religion that required a deep examination of the motives and inner secrets of the soul.

But Jesus in His graciousness offered them an intermediary step toward accepting His claims to be one with the Father, a God that they found to out of harmony with their views of Him. Even the very suggestion of calling Him Father was out of harmony with the kind of God they pictured. Yet Jesus asked them to at least consider, based on the standards they themselves used from the laws of Moses, to compare His life, His treatment of people against the true meaning and standards laid out in the Torah. He invited them to judge His life against the law by which they claimed to measure righteousness and see what the conclusions might look like. And He knew that if they were willing to be honest then what they would discover from that analysis would lead them to take the next step and seriously consider believing that His version of God was actually the more accurate one and that He was who He said He was.

Believe the works, so that you may know and understand... What an invitation to one resistant to belief! And He offers the same thing to skeptics and believers alike still today.

As I choose to dwell on and fill my mind with the stories of how Jesus related to people with problems and doubts similar to my own, the implications from the stories of His life produced in my heart naturally begin to create longings to want to know Him better so that He can make the same kind of changes and transformations in my life as He did for others. As I dwell on the incredible kindness and goodness and forgiving attitude of Jesus towards people with similar faults and fears as my own, hope springs up inside my heart and longings are intensified to experience the same kind of joy and blessing and healing that Jesus brought to so many who were touched by His presence.

What I see Jesus telling me here is that if I too struggle to believe some of His claims about Himself, then it is alright to just take time to consider His works, His deeds of kindness and love and all that His life revealed. As I absorb the truth about what Jesus was like I am also rewiring my opinions and notions about what God is like, for Jesus treated people no different in the slightest degree than how God treats people.

And that is really the everlasting good news (which is the actual meaning of the word 'gospel'). The true gospel is not a list of doctrines or a creed or any other such formula; the real gospel is the incredible truth that the all-powerful God who created everything in the whole universe, in whose presence sin cannot exist without extreme torture from disharmony – this very God is not at all how His enemies have made Him out to be. The natural assumptions my heart has about God cannot be trusted and the only safe way to find and embrace the truth about Him is by filling my mind with Jesus and in turn having my heart absorb the same, the revelation of God as lived out in the life of His Son, the Messiah who came to change all of our minds about Him.