There is no fear in love; but
perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves punishment, and
the one who fears is not perfected in love. (1 John 4:18)
Over the past few years my
understanding of the real truth about God, about how He deals with
sinners and about rewards and punishments have radically changed from
what I was taught growing up and what mainstream Christianity still
teaches. I have come to discover in the Bible and through promptings
from the Holy Spirit in my own study that God is very little like
what He has been represented to be by those claiming to teach about
Him. Rather He is exactly like what Jesus taught and demonstrated in
His life while here on earth. I have come to realize the powerful
implications of this truth and how much it indicts most of what we
have assumed is truth.
Part of what I have learned has to do
with how God plans to overcome the problem of evil and the lies of
Satan about Him. Satan has done everything possible to deceive us in
regards as to what God is like and unfortunately he has largely
succeeded, especially among those professing religion. Far from
helping to improve God's reputation and seeking to vindicate Him,
much of what we believe about God is still reinforcing many false
assertions about Him originated in the mind the the great deceiver.
Yet through it all God patiently works to bring about a final
resolution that will forever settle the issues without ever resorting
to employing the tactics and methods of His enemy.
Fear is possibly the primary tool that
Satan relies on to keep us in darkness about God. Of course deception
is also the main instrument he uses to keep us afraid of God. Through
the use of these two elements he has managed to prolong his tyranny
for thousands of years even though the results have been tragic and
painful. God will never change His tactics for meeting the charges
against Him or resort to using force, intimidation and fear to
overcome evil. Satan's methods are counterfeits of God's true ways
and using them even for a moment would vindicate Satan's claims that
they are necessary to keep order in the universe.
However, because all of humanity is
deceived in regards to these things we have believed that God indeed
does resort to using at least some of Satan's methods for control
when things become too difficult for love to handle. But in believing
such things about God all we have accomplished is to 'create' a God –
a distortion of God at best – in our own image rather than believe
the glorious truth about Him that Jesus revealed. God is not the kind
of person we have always thought Him to be: arbitrary, harsh, waiting
to punish those who reject His love or even One handing out rewards
for good behavior. All of this has come as a surprising revelation to
me over recent years as I have come to discover the real truth about
the amazing character of our heavenly Father.
As I contemplated this verse this
morning I was reminded of this and how much my fear of God has
subsided over the years. When I was growing up I was so afraid of
God's punishment that I came to hate Him secretly. Yet I was so
intimidated by His assumed wrath that I was fearful to even admit to
anyone or even to myself that I felt that way. I lived under a
constant and increasing load of fear, guilt and condemnation trying
desperately to somehow appease this angry God who seemed bent on
finding any excuse to keep me from entering paradise.
In recent years I have come to realize
that not only was my heart and mind filled with myriads of lies about
God derived from religion, but that fear itself was my greatest enemy
and that it was actually fear itself that was tormenting me
ruthlessly. I still have residual pockets of this twisted thinking in
my brain that tortures me at various times, for my healing from these
many lies is far from complete. But the peace and the ability to even
begin to love God spontaneously that I have begun to experience in
recent years is in stark contrast to the heaviness of the fear that
suffocated my heart for much of my life.
Out of curiosity I compiled a list of
translations of the phrase from this verse that gives a broader
perspective of the truth embedded here.
fear implies [that we are afraid of]
punishment (2001)
where fear is, there is pain (BBE)
The thought of being punished is what
makes us afraid (CVE)
fear has torment (Darby, KJV, Webster,
MKJV)
fear involves punishment (EMTV, FAA,
GW, ISV, NASB95, TSV)
fear has to do with punishment (ESV,
GNB, NET, NIV, NRSV)
fear worries about punishment (FBV)
feare hath painefulnesse (Geneva)
fear suggests punishment (GSNT)
fear has punishment (LITV, NHEBYSE, RV,
YLT)
fear has always torment (MNT)
fear implies punishment (TCNT)
fear involves pain (WNT)
What began to become obvious to me
today is the truth that fear itself is the origin of the punishment
and pain that we suffer while making us assume that it is God who is
punishing us. Most Christians believe that God is in the punishing
and rewarding business, but recently I have begun to realize that the
whole system of rewards and punishments is a counterfeit of God's
system of life-giving love alone. This truth can be seen from the
very beginning of the Bible but has been largely overlooked. The two
systems of operation or models for relationships was represented by
two distinctly different trees in the Garden of Eden. This truth has
long been little investigated but recently was brought to my
attention in a book I am just finishing called The Demonization of
God Unmasked by Oswald Grant.
In this book which is a very detailed
examination of the enormous implications embedded in the wrong tree
in particular, it is becoming clear to me that much of what we have
long assumed was good and righteous and as emanating from God in our
world can actually be traced back to the counterfeit system designed
to keep us occupied pursuing the wrong version of 'good'. All of our
lives we have assumed that all good comes from God, but clearly as
seen in the very name of this tree, the tree that introduced sin and
all its consequences into our world, there is a good that masks the
fact that it ends up in death.
This tree, The Tree of the Knowledge of
Good and Evil as the Bible calls it, is representative of the whole
counterfeit system of living as promoted by the archenemy of God.
This enemy is so smart – the smartest being in the universe other
than God, at least at one time – that there is no hope of figuring
out his deceptions ourselves. Only through revelations from God
Himself can we ever hope to escape the massive labyrinth of lies that
we find ourselves in as sinners. Only by choosing to believe that God
is right and is the only source of both life and truth can we ever
find salvation from the deep darkness and resulting death of sin.
For years I pondered the name of this
tree and saw that one of the significant parts of its name was the
word 'knowledge'. I could see how many are deceived, particularly
through religion into thinking that what can save us is more
knowledge. Thus we find ourselves obsessed with gaining more and more
knowledge – information that is – and thinking that if we could
just know enough accurate information that we could extricate
ourselves with God's help from the deceptions of Satan's lies. But
this is yet another decoy built into the labyrinth to keep us
wandering around in circles caught in the darkness of deception. We
do indeed need a knowledge to enter into true salvation, but the kind
of knowledge that we must have is a very different kind of knowledge
than that proposed in the name of this tree.
Jesus repeatedly told us that we do
need a 'knowledge' to escape the trap of sin. But the kind of
knowledge that will save us is not so much informational knowledge
but is rather a heart-based, relational, experiential knowledge of
coming to really know God personally and intimately. Only in knowing
God and being empowered to respond positively to His agape love at
the heart level can we ever hope to be salvaged and experience
restoration from the damage that Satan's lies have caused in our
psyche and our perceptions of reality. And while good information is
certainly helpful in coming to know God, it can never a substitute
for humbling ourselves to embrace the reality of the transforming
power of grace and the real truth about God's character of pure love.
This is where Satan has set up his
greatest deceptions to keep us from entering into this saving
relationship with God. Satan has filled our hearts and the whole
world with lies about God designed to make us afraid of Him in every
way possible in order to prevent us from allowing Him to speak His
truth into our souls that can heal our minds and hearts. As long as
we believe false assertions about God we will remain infected and
inhibited by fears that are unfounded but that tend to block us from
allowing God to heal us and save us. Thus we can begin to see that
fear itself is one of the most diabolical tools of the enemy of our
souls that keeps us from entering into the salvation that God wants
for us to experience.
Notice how closely fear is linked with
the idea of punishment in this verse. Because we have believed that
God is in the punishing business and we too often refuse to challenge
that assumption, we block our own way to perceiving and appreciating
many things about God that would unlock access to a far deeper
intimacy with Him that would heal our minds and hearts. Fear is
always involved in perpetuating lies about both God and punishment.
When we insist on embracing Satan's assertions that God is waiting to
punish all those who resist His love, we in turn experience the
natural consequences of pain and actually create a false reality
within our own thinking where we interpret the suffering we
experience as being imposed on us by an offended God.
The human mind has the amazing ability
to construct false realities and then interpret everything that
happens in such a way as to reinforce the assumptions within that
counterfeit reality. For an example, consider the terrified cries of
the lost in Revelation 6:16 where they fully believe that Jesus is a
lamb full of wrath. Such absurdity can only be understood when one
begins to grasp the powerful effect that believing such lies about
God has on the human heart. When we insist on believing in and
promoting a God who is supposedly both agape love while at the same
time engaged in using violence, force and fear like His archenemy
claims is necessary, our perceptions of reality remain so warped that
total nonsense becomes the standard by which we perceive and
experience life.
What really got my attention this
morning however, was the insight that the torture that we assume is
punishment from God is actually inherent in the very fears
about God that we choose to cling to in our false assumptions about
Him. Fear itself contains all the seeds of pain and suffering that
results in the torments of the lost and even in much of the suffering
we now experience. The lies about God that are believed so pervert
the perception of reality that we too often are completely convinced
that it is God who is the source of torture, not realizing that the
torment is all coming from the inside.
Paul alludes to this truth in Romans.
But, according to thy hardness and
impenitent heart, treasurest up to thyself wrath, in the day of wrath
and revelation of the righteous judgment of God.
(Romans 2:5 Darby) What I have come to realize is that the
wrath anyone will experience, either on the final day of judgment
when the real truth about God is finally revealed, and even much of
the suffering we experience now that we attribute to God's punishing
us, all comes from false ideas about God that we cling to inside of
us. As we interpret life through the filters of these lies that God
is intending to use violence against us at some point, the very seeds
of that pain of torture are being stored away inside our hearts and
minds that will spring up to bear the fruit of self torture. But that
torture is all based on what is inside of us and in no way comes from
the God of agape love.
When we experience torture or pain or
discomfort in the presence of God's holiness, it is never because God
desires for us to suffer that pain. The problem is always that
whenever sin – lies about God and the resulting distrust that it
produces in the heart – encounters increased revelations about
God's true character of love and goodness, otherwise known as His
righteousness, the dissonance created between our perceptions of Him
and the real truth about Him results in resistance. And any
electronics person will tell you that when a resistor experiences too
much power that it results in overheating and eventual
self-destruction. The very same is true of our resistance to the
truth about God's agape love. That is why Paul says in this last
verse that wrath is experienced when God's righteous judgment is
revealed.
Again, I must remind us that judgment
is yet another word that has largely been distorted and
misunderstood. The way God uses the word has nothing to do with
condemnation, for John 3:17 makes it explicitly clear that God is not
in the condemning business. Rather, condemnation is a reaction of the
human mind to dissonance when two opposing ideas cannot be reconciled
inside our heads. Thus when we insist on clinging to lies about God's
love and then come face to face with the truth of God's love, the
dissonance between these two opposing forces creates immense pain and
suffering and in the end will be the cause of eternal death for all
those who are lost.
This truth is not only radical but is
sadly rejected outright by the vast majority of people, both
Christian or otherwise. But it still remains truth even if only a
small minority choose to embrace it. It is a life-transformational
truth that will alter the way we perceive reality and has the
potential to open up our own hearts to experience God at much deeper
levels than was possible previously. The more we choose to embrace
the truth about God's singular character of agape love, the more we
come into alignment with Him and are healed and saved by the
revelation of that love to our hearts, particularly in contemplating
the life and death of His Son Jesus Christ.
As John so clearly stated in the
surrounding verses to the one we started with, God is love. He also
stated categorically that the core message of the gospel – the good
news about God – is the truth about what God is really like.
This is the message we have heard
from Him and announce to you, that God is Light, and in Him there is
no darkness at all. (1 John 1:5)
The implications of this verse is still
opening up my perceptions in more and more areas of my own beliefs
about God. As I come to see that many things that I still assume
about God must be challenged in the light of emerging revelations
about Him from His Word, the more my heart is beginning to open up to
experience His presence and healing in my own soul. I am coming to
realize that much of what I still believe about God has been derived
from the wrong source – the tree that our first parents ate from
and that perverted their whole perception of reality and what God was
like. Ever since then we have lived under the delusions of Satan's
lies about God, and only through the direct intervention of the Son
of God can we come to be restored into the life-receiving
relationship that we must have in order to live in the eternal life
that He wants for us to enjoy in Him.
Years ago I began to realize through
personal intense experience that my greatest enemy was fear itself. I
wasted much of my life fighting against the things, the people or the
situations that made me afraid until I began to realize that it was
my own fear itself that was torturing and sucking the life out of me,
not the things or people that made me afraid. Becoming aware of this
I began to turn my attention toward focusing on God and the real
truth about His character during the times when I was most tormented
by fear and I found to my amazement that the fear could not remain in
the presence of such power. I had begun to tap into the real power of
agape love, a love that is unconditional and cannot be diluted in the
slightest by anything we do. That was the whole point of what
happened at the cross. Jesus demonstrated that nothing humans or
demons could do to hurt Him could dampen His love and forgiveness
even for a moment. And this truth will in the last days be the
liberating revelation that will enlighten the whole world with the
glory of God before the end finally comes. (see Revelation 18:1)
And we have come to know and to
believe the love that God has in us. God is love, and the one who
resides in love resides in God, and God resides in him. By this love
is perfected with us, so that we may have confidence in the
day of judgment, because just as Jesus is, so also are we
in this world. (1 John 4:16-17 NET)