I am currently delving into a deeper understanding of the true meaning of the cross of Christ, how it relates to salvation and how it reveals God's heart.

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Real Power

For I will not presume to speak of anything except what Christ has accomplished through me, resulting in the obedience of the Gentiles by word and deed, in the power of signs and wonders, in the power of the Spirit; so that from Jerusalem and round about as far as Illyricum I have fully preached the gospel of Christ. (Romans 15:18-19)

This is the word of the Lord to Zerubbabel, saying, Not by force or by power, but by my Spirit, says the Lord of armies. (Zechariah 4:6 BBE)

I am coming to the part of Romans where Paul begins talking about his travel plans and the next chapter is mostly spent giving greetings to a great number of people by name. I am not saying that these are not important, but they are not of the same kind of instructional intensity that the rest of Romans has been. For the past few days I have been perusing over this last part of Romans but today I wanted to come back and visit the last few verses of what I have been meditating on for the last few weeks.

What I see again is a reminder of the stark difference between what most religious people get addicted to and God's ways of dealing with people – the issue of power. And because most people get sucked into the lies about God that cause them to believe that He uses His power abusively just as sinful religious (and non-religious) people do, hence has been promoted all the tragic and distorted belief systems that have been pawned off as truth about the God of heaven.

Many of these lies and the truths that they counterfeit revolve around the issue of power. Our very concept of what is meant by this word is heavily influenced by how pervasive these lies have infiltrated our thinking. When we read a verse like the one above from Romans we often assume that miracles and the gift of the Holy Ghost are given to us to force people to come to God in some way. Too often we utilize the carrot-and-stick approach to evangelism and corrupt the true gospel of God by mingling in a degree of fearful intimidation if our initial invitation to surrender to God is not effective enough.

What we don't realize is that most of the time what we call “surrender to God” really means surrender to the control of our church or local religious group. We assume that since God has entrusted His people on earth with authority (another word seriously misunderstood) that we have the right to control other people's lives whom we are bringing into the church. We also operate on the assumption that our church is the body of Christ and tend to exclude from our thinking of that body anyone who thinks too much outside the box – our box that is.

The bottom line is that we want to promote our agenda in the name of God and we believe that God is on our side and that He is supposed to vindicate us by using miracles to attract/intimidate others into joining us so we can dominate their spiritual life in the name of training them. I know this sounds rather harsh and that most people would not believe that this is what they do, but in the eyes of heaven I think our spirit and actions toward each other are starkly different than what we are used to perceiving about ourselves.

But what I sense in Paul's words here reveals a different spirit and disposition than the popular religious ones today. Paul had come to the point where he refused to participate in anything that would feed into the pride inherent in sinful flesh and corrupt the reflection of God's character through his life. Instead Paul was obsessed in radically altering the picture of God typically held by most people, Jews and Gentiles alike, by demonstrating and promoting the overwhelming attractiveness of the real truths about God.

In that context the word “power” takes on a whole new dimension and drops off its negative connotations. No longer is power to be viewed as something to promote forcing people to do what we want them to do in the name of religion. God's kind of power is so radically different that what we think of power that it would almost be useful to come up with a completely different word. But God uses our language and so we need to be careful to reexamine the real meanings behind all the words that He uses so as to discern how they have been hijacked by Satan and begin to use them in their true sense once again. Only as we do this do I believe we can begin to benefit more effectively from our study of the Word of God.

In the context of a proper understanding and usage of the word “power”, this verse takes on different implications than what we might initially assume. When signs and wonders and the power of the Spirit are not viewed as things to be used in the wrong way, to promote our brand of religion or bring people under our control, then it will be seen that these are things that are intended to reveal the true attractiveness of God's true character and to draw all people into trusting in His unconditional love for them. This is the essence of the true gospel and was the burden of the preaching and teaching of Paul as he pushed himself to share it in as many places as he could think of.

I want my life to be reflective of the true meaning of this word “power”. I want the incredible attractiveness of God to glow through my words, actions and spirit and to draw people to want to become more intimate with Him. I am painfully aware that much of the time that is not the case in my life. But that is also why I am bent on becoming so absorbed in knowing Him better at the heart level that my unconscious attitudes will be transformed to reflect His goodness more consistently. I want to have the relationship to him that was seen in the servants in Jesus' story in the first part of Luke 17 so that I will have much more faith. I trust God to continue to lead me into that kind of genuine relationship with Him, to cleanse me of false ideas about Him and to fill my life with the kind of power that is never abusive but is overwhelmingly attractive to draw others to His heart.

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Saturday, October 25, 2008

True Holiness

I found myself reviewing this chapter again for context. As I look back over Romans 15 to remind myself of the many things that I have learned over the past few months I can see even better more of the links that connect the various concepts in different parts of the text. But more importantly I open my heart to hearing what needs to happen inside of me that God wants to show me from this passage.

Here are a few things that I am seeing.

Those around us who are without strength need our perseverance and encouragement. I need to remember that sometimes I am going to be the one without strength.

I need to become a servant on behalf of the truth of God to demonstrate and reflect His servant attitude. This will in turn attract others to Him instead of me attempting to drive them to Him with shame, fear or intimidation. This seems to be God's method of relating toward religious people as I see it in this passage. On the other hand, His method for unbelievers is to become a servant in order to demonstrate His great mercy. That is somewhat different than serving religious people to confirm the truth about God, although many times religious people are not really believers and also need to see and experience mercy to attract them to God. The labels on people are not always indicative of what is in the heart.

I need to experience mercy myself – deep in my heart in order to be able to reflect it to others. To be an effective and attractive servant I need to experience everything that I am passing on to them. I need to believe in it from personal experience, not just mental assent and profession. I must be mentored to be accepting of mercy and kindness and love for myself instead of resisting it. Then I will be able to express it to others more naturally and authentically.

This kind of authentic unselfishness, this kind of servant spirit is the true definition of holiness. As I have been thinking about this lately, I am sensing that holiness in my life is simply a reflection of God's holiness which simply means that He is totally dedicated to serving all of His creation ahead of His own comfort or feelings. As I become more acquainted with the selfless spirit and disposition of God I will be empowered to reflect it more accurately.

Very recently I found myself trying to share the truth about God with a small group of religious people having their typical religious discussion. When it was all done I was left feeling very dissatisfied with the results of my comments. My intention was certainly noble I believe, but the effect of my words – probably more my tone of voice and body language – I felt was potentially chilling in my opinion upon reflection. I hate this about myself and desperately want God to bring total healing to whatever it is that still causes me to misrepresent Him so badly in this way.

I know that there are still roots producing bitterness in my heart that are yet undiscovered and need replacing with roots of love and compassion, kindness and gentleness. But I cannot heal myself – only God can heal those kinds of deep scars. I don't know how to even get from here to there except to keep asking Him to expose and judge me with His healing kind of pre-judgment that exposes the lies of the heart and replaces them with empowering truth.

I don't want to keep scaring people away from truth that is such a blessing to my own heart. I know this is one of Satan's schemes to keep my witness ineffective and continue to damage God's reputation. But I don't want to be a part any longer of Satan's schemes to dishonor God. I want to be a clean reflection of God's beauty both in word and in spirit, especially in spirit. God, be merciful to me a sinner!

I cast myself on the mercy and faithfulness of God to heal me – for His name's sake. Because it is all really about His reputation, not mine. I want Him to make me a truthful and faithful witness like Jesus.

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