Discipline for Glory

Furthermore, we had earthly fathers to discipline us, and we respected them; shall we not much rather be subject to the Father of spirits, and live? For they disciplined us for a short time as seemed best to them, but He disciplines us for our good, so that we may share His holiness. (Hebrews 12:9-10)

I am still on my quest to uncover and expose the roots of bitterness within me that are preventing me from enjoying the freedom and joy that God intends and desires for me to live in. I am carefully studying the passage in Hebrews surrounding the key verse about roots of bitterness to find all the clues I can and to flush out for my own recognition anything that resonates in my heart with the descriptions I find here in the Word. I have been experiencing progress in this journey though much of it is not easily definable in words.

One of the areas that has very strong resonance to what I find in this chapter is the discussion about discipline. I have been unpacking this for some time and find that there is always more whenever I come back to look at it again. It is an area of my life in which there is a great deal of misperception, pain and apprehension in my heart. I have reason to believe that it may also be one of the greatest contributors to the mass of lies about God that was early instilled into my thinking, launching me into many years of fear, legalism and bitterness toward not only those who mistakenly trained me in this area but toward God on whom I projected all of my false conclusions.

So I feel that it is very helpful for me to go back to this base of soreness and open it up again to receive light, truth and healing. By doing so I believe that the triggers that currently cause such intense inner reactions that blind me from relating properly to a wholesome relationship with God whenever this subject is raised can be neutralized. The verses quoted above hold a great deal of the truth and correction needed for my false perceptions about valid discipline and I want to explore them deeper.

As I have processed previously, the word discipline is strongly related to the word disciple and is better understood in the context of how Jesus related to His disciples. But looking at that example does not resonate much with what I experienced growing up. Most of the training that I received was closer to the counterfeit of good discipline and thus seemed to have more negative than positive effects on my life that were then passed on to another generation. But God is giving grace to stop this cycle and bring truth and healing into the lives and hearts of everyone affected who are willing to receive it.

I looked up some of the words in the original language this morning from these verses and found some interesting insights. I have been writing for some time about the contrasts presented here between the typical discipline received from the father of our flesh and the healthy, life-producing discipline we can accept from the perfect Father of our spirit. Many of the problems we experience in our flesh (literally the sarx) are passed on to us in the messed-up thinking from previous generations and the misconceptions they in turn received from their previous generations. One reason for this is because of the nature of the world's view of reality and the assumptions in false religion itself. These focus primarily on the externals to the exclusion generally of the condition of the spirit of a person. This means that appearances are more important than the heart, that results and symptoms are far more valued than looking past those to healing and nurturing the roots that produce the external symptoms. This is an accurate description of the way the world operates – conformity, but it is not the ways of God – transformation. (Romans 12:1)

I looked into the Greek to unpack this phrase, they disciplined us for a short time as seemed best to them. The discipline here is the same word used as for God's discipline in this passage so it is clear that there is at least some similarity involved. But the description of the motives and goals are what reveal the real contrast.

When I looked up the word used for as seemed best, I found that the original word means as they supposed or thought, for their own pleasure, having to do with their reputation. That is certainly a very good description of much of the supposed discipline as administered by most parents or authority figures. It usually has more to do with their own distorted suppositions about how to train a child through means of force, intimidation and the instilling of fear mixed with attempts to love or offer enticements. Rewards and punishments in varying degrees of mixture is the norm for this world's idea of good discipline. It is the standard by which we almost always measure the way we or others treat our children or subordinates. But this is in contrast to a very different picture of how God views discipline.

He disciplines us for our good, so that we may share His holiness. While on the surface it may appear that our methods are not really that much different than God's ways, this phrase exposes a whole world of difference – in fact the difference between this world and the ways of heaven. It is true that God's discipline often involves pain and even great discomfort at times, but the greatest distinction is found in the character and motivation of the One who is perfect and is always acting out of the context of complete selflessness. Not only is His objective to have us share in His holiness instead of the self-interests that our earthly parents typically had, but when I looked up the word here translated share I found something even more revealing.

The original Greed word used here is metalambano. It literally means to participate; to accept (and use): – eat, have, be partaker, receive, take, according to Strong's concordance. That immediately reminded me of the word's of Jesus that reflected this very idea. Jesus was the perfect example of how God administers discipline and demonstrated that in the way He treated everyone and especially His own disciples. Here is how I believe He described the purpose and intent of God's discipline.

So Jesus said to them, "Truly, truly, I say to you, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink His blood, you have no life in yourselves. "He who eats My flesh and drinks My blood has eternal life, and I will raise him up on the last day. "For My flesh is true food, and My blood is true drink. "He who eats My flesh and drinks My blood abides in Me, and I in him. "As the living Father sent Me, and I live because of the Father, so he who eats Me, he also will live because of Me. "This is the bread which came down out of heaven; not as the fathers ate and died; he who eats this bread will live forever." (John 6:53-58)

What is even more interesting is that when I looked up all the references to this Greek word metalambano, almost every time it was used it refered to eating food and sometimes in the context of social interaction. So what I am seeing here in Hebrews is a description of discipline as the means that God is using to get me into looking and feeling just like Him. Depending on your current inner picture of God that can either be very exciting or quite intimidating or even disgusting.

What I have not explored enough in this study is what the true meaning of holiness is. What I do know already is that nearly everything that immediately comes to most minds when they hear this word is misleading at best and very distorted and usually confused. Holiness along with other words like piety and righteousness are some of the most obfuscated words in our vocabulary that have been twisted and defaced through centuries of abuse and distortions about what God is like and how He treats people. I believe that if it is possible we would be far ahead in our progress to understand these words if we could completely divest our minds and hearts all previous notions of what they mean before we try to find the true meaning of them from God's perspective.

There is a very good study on the word “holy” put out by Craig Hill from Family Foundations International that I would recommend highly for this study. It is called Holy verses Common and is one of the best explanations I have ever heard on the real meaning of this word “holy”. Basically he explains that this word simply means, “totally and exclusively dedicated to...” To understand this concept it must also be understood that there is always an object or person to which it is dedicated. Therefore, something cannot be considered holy or dedicated unless there is something or someone that is the subject of that dedication.

Craig uses the illustration of a “dedicated phone line” for use of a FAX machine. That phone line is not to be used for any other purpose (common) than for incoming and outgoing FAXes. If that line is used for some other purpose it has been “defiled” or corrupted from its “holiness”, it has then been made “common”. Common does not necessarily mean bad, it just means it is for common use for all sorts of things or people. He shows throughout Scripture how various things or people were viewed as “holy” and what or who the subject of that holiness pointed to. This is made even more clear when it is noted that on the front of the turban of the High Priest in the Old Testament the words were placed, “Holy unto the Lord”. That meant that this person was totally dedicated to the service of God and was not to do anything else but what God wanted for Him.

When this understanding of holiness is applied to this verse in Hebrews it shed a whole different light on what it means to share in God's holiness. A priest by definition is a person whose sole job is to communicate the thoughts of God to people and to carry the problems and sins of people to God. He was to be a mediator for God as God's representative to draw people to God's attractiveness and instruct them about the things and ways of God. If a priest is someone wholly dedicated to God and not to be involved in anything common or unholy, that tells us something very important and wonderful about God's plan for all of us.

God tried to offer His plan early on to the Israelites, but they were so stuck in the fears and misconceptions about God that they failed to accept His offer and in place set up what is typically referred to as the Old Covenant. That arrangement was one in which they promised obedience and tried to perform good enough to impress God instead of allowing God to live inside of them and do the work Himself. Here is God's original offer to them just before He gave them the simplistic description of His character in the 10 Words from Mt. Sinai.

'Now then, if you will indeed obey My voice and keep My covenant, then you shall be My own possession among all the peoples, for all the earth is Mine; and you shall be to Me a kingdom of priests and a holy nation.' These are the words that you shall speak to the sons of Israel. (Exodus 19:5-6)

Now look at the offer made again, but this time to us. How are we going to relate to it?

You also, as living stones, are being built up as a spiritual house for a holy priesthood, to offer up spiritual sacrifices acceptable to God through Jesus Christ.

But you are a chosen race, A royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people for God's own possession, so that you may proclaim the excellencies of Him who has called you out of darkness into His marvelous light; for you once were not a people, but now you are THE PEOPLE OF GOD; you had not received mercy, but now you have received mercy. (1 Peter 2:5, 9-10)

To him who loves us and freed us from our sins by his blood, and made us to be a kingdom, priests serving his God and Father, to him be glory and dominion forever and ever. Amen. (Revelation 1:5-6 NRSV)

So let me pull all of this together now. Apparently the whole purpose of God's discipline is to remove anything from within me that contaminates my spirit so that I can be totally dedicated exclusively to the purpose of proclaiming the excellencies of Him who has called me out of darkness into His marvelous light. I do this by feeding on the very essence of the body of Christ, filling my mind and heart with the truth about God as primarily revealed in Jesus. As I do this I realize the incredible value of the identity that I have as a child of God and my inclusion in His family. I accept and believe in His mercy and offer up spiritual sacrifices acceptable to God through Jesus Christ.

Because I am holy dedicated to this purpose of proclaiming His excellencies I must not become contaminated again with the lies about God that have made me common in the past. I am now exclusively His and need to continually feast on the Word of God, both from the written Word and even more from the Father of my spirit, the Word made flesh. This is the true meaning and purpose and method of discipline (discipling) as God sees it in contrast to the performance-oriented, fear-based discipline and punitive punishments that I learned from the system of flesh-thinking.

God, continue to open and expand and fill my mind with the real truth about You. I choose to release to you the lies and roots of bitterness as You expose them in me. At times I know this is going to be very painful, but I also realize that much of the pain is caused because of my resistance to your work to expose and remove those things in me that endanger my survival in Your pure presence of passionate love. Please help me to not be so resistant to Your perfect discipline in my fears and misconceptions about discipline that I have had all of my life. I want to cooperate with you so I can grow and mature and live in the freedom that Your children enjoy in Your presence. Make my life another successful experiment of Your grace and mercy for Your reputation's sake.

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Peaceful Righteousness

All discipline for the moment seems not to be joyful, but sorrowful; yet to those who have been trained by it, afterwards it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness. Therefore, strengthen the hands that are weak and the knees that are feeble, and make straight paths for your feet, so that the limb which is lame may not be put out of joint, but rather be healed.

(Hebrews 12:11-13)

Some thoughts that come to my mind when I ponder what might be the cause of the weakness described here. One thing that comes to mind is the need for a new identity. One reason for weakness is from still believing in my old identity learned from fathers of flesh.

Weak hands, feeble knees, lameness in danger of being put out of joint from crooked and uneven paths.

Be healed. That is the purpose of sanctification isn't it? And the result is the removal of the roots of bitterness.

Weakness and feebleness results from not focusing on Jesus and the truth about God as instructed in verses 2 and 3.

The prophecies about John the Baptist foretold that he would make the paths for Jesus straight. That involved removing the high spots and filling in the ruts and potholes to make a smooth highway for Jesus. With some of the rough work out of the way Jesus' work could be more efficient in His mission to reveal to us the truth about what God is really like.

I looked up some of the instances that seem to relate to the straightening of paths and related ideas and found some very inspiring passages that connect very well with this passage.

The voice of one crying in the wilderness: "Prepare the way of the LORD; make straight in the desert a highway for our God. Every valley shall be exalted and every mountain and hill brought low; the crooked places shall be made straight and the rough places smooth; the glory of the LORD shall be revealed, and all flesh shall see it together; for the mouth of the LORD has spoken." (Isaiah 40:3-5 NKJV)

I will bring the blind by a way they did not know; I will lead them in paths they have not known. I will make darkness light before them, and crooked places straight. These things I will do for them, and not forsake them. (Isaiah 42:16 NKJV)

What is interesting in these verses is the difference in the translations in various versions. Many other translations instead of saying crooked places made straight say rough places made smooth. It seems that the only difference between the two ideas is the direction of the crookedness. One seems to imply crookedness that we would think of as side to side crookedness that needs to be straighten out on the horizontal plain and the other is a problem up and down with the path that needs to be leveled and smoothed out. Really both are needed if a superhighway is to be built for the expediting of high-speed traffic. And Jesus wants to have all the speed He can get in bringing humanity back into intimate fellowship with the Godhead.

Something that comes to me this morning is the feeling that sometimes there seems to be the need for a period of time where we have to expose our lies about God and begin to release them before we can embrace the truths about God and enjoy them (thrive). If we are clinging to the lies we cannot, at least with our heart, effectively believe the truth about God that conflicts with those lies. If we try to we only end up being double-minded and highly unstable (James 1:6-8) but maybe very religious and pious-looking. We are double-minded because our head and our heart believe two different things about God at the same time.

Instability is weakness. Lameness is weakness. But in this verse it looks like it might not yet be out of joint. What does being out of joint mean? More firmly rejecting the truth about God and entrenched in bitterness? Interpreting discipline as vengeful punishments by God and growing to hate Him in our hearts? It most likely involves the opposite of the peace spoken of in verse 11.

Righteousness is defined in Romans as believing that God can do what He says He can do.

And being fully assured that what God had promised, He was able also to perform. Therefore IT WAS also CREDITED TO HIM AS RIGHTEOUSNESS. (Romans 4:21-22)

That assurance that Abraham demonstrated lives and thrives in the atmosphere of peace.

God's discipline produces the fruit of peaceful righteousness. Righteousness that is not peaceful is quite frightening and is the counterfeit of real righteousness. Counterfeit righteousness is exhausting, is self-focused and does not produce peace. It causes us to worry about whether we are perfect enough to be saved; if God is impressed enough with our strained efforts to please and appease Him. There is no peace in that kind of life. I can speak from first-hand experience.

I remember the powerful impact the following words had on me the first time I read them many years ago in agony of spirit, struggling to find God and holiness and worn out from the years of my effort to be good enough to be accepted by God. First I resonated unusually strong with the first paragraph that described my inner feelings perfectly.

As your conscience has been quickened by the Holy Spirit, you have seen something of the evil of sin, of its power, its guilt, its woe; and you look upon it with abhorrence. You feel that sin has separated you from God, that you are in bondage to the power of evil. The more you struggle to escape, the more you realize your helplessness. Your motives are impure; your heart is unclean. You see that your life has been filled with selfishness and sin. You long to be forgiven, to be cleansed, to be set free. Harmony with God, likeness to Him--what can you do to obtain it?

Those last words aroused an intensity within me that was like a crystal glass vibrating almost to the point of shattering with sympathetic resonance to a loud note of music. Yes! This described perfectly the desperate cry of my inner-most being – what do I have to do to obtain it? I could not wait to see what the next words were going to tell me. At last I had finally come across the secret answer I had been looking for for so many years. At last I would find the “holy grail” that would unlock the door that I had been banging my head against for so long and allow me into the acceptance of God so that I could be free of the crushing weight of condemnation that was suffocating my spiritual soul and was even affecting my physical body. With eager anticipation I read the next words and then sat stunned and in shock at the unexpectedness and yet perfect insight with which they described even more perfectly what I had not even known about myself. But is was the last thing that I expected to find here.

It is peace that you need – Heaven's forgiveness and peace and love in the soul. Money cannot buy it, intellect cannot procure it, wisdom cannot attain to it; you can never hope, by your own efforts, to secure it. But God offers it to you as a gift, "without money and without price." Isaiah 55:1. It is yours if you will but reach out your hand and grasp it. The Lord says, "Though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they be red like crimson, they shall be as wool." Isaiah 1:18. "A new heart also will I give you, and a new spirit will I put within you." Ezekiel 36:26.

You have confessed your sins, and in heart put them away. You have resolved to give yourself to God. Now go to Him, and ask that He will wash away your sins and give you a new heart. Then believe that He does this because He has promised. This is the lesson which Jesus taught while He was on earth, that the gift which God promises us, we must believe we do receive, and it is ours. Jesus healed the people of their diseases when they had faith in His power; He helped them in the things which they could see, thus inspiring them with confidence in Him concerning things which they could not see –leading them to believe in His power to forgive sins. {SC 49}

It is yours if you will but reach out your hand and grasp it. Those words sounded that the catch that the lying spirits inside of me were looking for. “See”, they taunted, “you knew there was a hidden catch clause in here somewhere. And since you can't figure out what it means to reach out your hand and grasp it, or you likely could not perform well enough to do it anyway, you still will not be able to have that peace. You are stuck with us and we will continue to torment you the rest of your life.”

Now that I think back on this time in my life it is more clear to me that my heart was very much like the hardened path in the parable of the sower that Jesus told. My heart had been trampled on by many people and had become so defensive and hard that it took little effort for the birds inside of me to be off with the seed of truth. But praise God He is not discouraged by birds or even hard ground but has ways and means to transform over time even hardened hearts into more receptive soil that can allow truth to take root.

I have to confess that these lying spirits have tormented me for most all of my life. But the truth about God is stronger than the lies from the false gods within and the light of the beauty of God as demonstrated in the life and teachings of Jesus is slowly dispelling the false gods – these lying spirits, these roots of bitterness that have so poisoned my life and calcified my heart for so many long years.

I am learning that it is not my faith that is so important as the fact that God is faithful. And as I focus on the One who is faithful I find His faith infiltrating my own heart and beginning to spring to life.

I am learning that instead of intense self-focus on the sin within me that looking more intently at the beauty of the truth about God softens my heart, renews my mind and produces natural fruit from within that is reflective of what I am seeing in His character.

I am learning that instead of working very hard to eliminate all “sin” from my life as I was so desperately trying to do for so many years in my attempt to arrive at some state assumed as righteousness, that the Bible teaches that if I will just choose to believe that God can and will do what He says He can and wants to do, then that choice itself is considered to be righteousness by Heaven. (Rom. 4:21, 22) That truth was in the words that I had read, but it has taken many more years for them to become more obvious to me.

Then believe that He does this because He has promised. This is the lesson which Jesus taught while He was on earth, that the gift which God promises us, we must believe we do receive, and it is ours.

What I now realize was the biggest block in my heart preventing me from seeing or believing this for most of my life was the pervasive lies about God's feelings toward me. I grew up with a settled picture of a severe God who was constantly looking for an excuse to keep me out of heaven and be lost. Much of my early life was like an ongoing competition between me and God to see whether my confessions and petitions could outstrip His ability to find some secret sin still lurking in my life by which to exclude me from heaven. I shudder with horror as I remember those torturous days of my life, and yet some of the residual feelings and beliefs still lurk in some of the hidden places of my mind still today.

What I needed for me to enjoy that peace, that was so clearly the longing of my soul when I first read the above statement many years ago, was a clear revelation of the true heart of God and the truth about His unconditional love toward me. But I was brought up in the culture that firmly believed that unconditional love was actually a heresy to be avoided as a deception of Satan. I wish so much that I could have really believed the words in a paragraph I had read just previous to the one quoted above. But the profusion of the lies about God always short-circuited the truth that now I can see was in plain sight. Because of my dark view of God I could not really accept the following truths.

It is a mistake to entertain the thought that God is pleased to see His children suffer. All heaven is interested in the happiness of man. Our heavenly Father does not close the avenues of joy to any of His creatures. The divine requirements call upon us to shun those indulgences that would bring suffering and disappointment, that would close to us the door of happiness and heaven. The world's Redeemer accepts men as they are, with all their wants, imperfections, and weaknesses; and He will not only cleanse from sin and grant redemption through His blood, but will satisfy the heart-longing of all who consent to wear His yoke, to bear His burden. It is His purpose to impart peace and rest to all who come to Him for the bread of life. He requires us to perform only those duties that will lead our steps to heights of bliss to which the disobedient can never attain. The true, joyous life of the soul is to have Christ formed within, the hope of glory. {SC 45, 46}

Since most of these words directly contradicted what I had been taught and made up the essence of my perception of what religion was all about, I was unable to accept the truth that was right under my nose. As badly as I wanted to feel accepted and as much as my heart longed for real satisfaction, I could not reconcile the words on these pages with the inner beliefs that made up the substance of my spiritual life. So I plodded on for years in search of the peace that I could not really live without but was always just out of reach. As a result I lived and cultured the inner soil that fostered the growth of many roots of bitterness which I am now trying to expose and dispose of. I am presently on the journey of healing spoken about in verse 13. Make straight paths for your feet, so that the limb which is lame may not be put out of joint, but rather be healed. (Hebrews 12:13)

But again, now that I think of it, even weeds can be means of softening up hard soil in preparation for better seed when they are pulled up. I can see back over my life the transitions from the hard soil progressively through the other types toward the productive field that can produce useful food for the nourishment of others. I may still have some rocks and weeds in my heart, but God is faithful to continue what He started and He will finish it with style.

I love the mission statement that was crafted for Jesus and that He lived out to the full. The Spirit of the Lord GOD is upon me, because the LORD has anointed me to bring good news to the afflicted; He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to captives and freedom to prisoners; to proclaim the favorable year of the LORD and the day of vengeance of our God; to comfort all who mourn, to grant those who mourn in Zion, giving them a garland instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, the mantle of praise instead of a spirit of fainting. So they will be called oaks of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that He may be glorified. Then they will rebuild the ancient ruins, they will raise up the former devastations; and they will repair the ruined cities, the desolations of many generations. (Isaiah 61:1-4)

God, I am impatient for all of these lies to be expelled from my heart. They have tormented me and distorted my perception of Your face and my concept of reality for far too long. Sometimes I feel upset at You for taking so long to do Your work in me, but then I remember that one reason for this is Your intense respect for my freedom and Your intention of doing a thorough job in me that will be permanent and not just imposed on the surface. So I trust in Your timing and once again give You permission to do whatever is necessary to cleanse me of all the roots of bitterness that still infect my heart. I choose to cooperate with whatever You want to do with me. Empower me with Your blessings today. And hey, thanks for telling me this morning that all heaven is interested in my happiness. That means a lot.

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Discipline - Flesh or Spirit?

But if you are without discipline, of which all have become partakers, then you are illegitimate children and not sons. Furthermore, we had earthly fathers to discipline us, and we respected them; shall we not much rather be subject to the Father of spirits, and live? (Hebrews 12:8-9)

I have a question. Is it true that illegitimate children are never disciplined? I don't quite understand where that assumption comes from. Maybe there is some cultural concept from the days of Paul that was implied here that is unfamiliar to us today. For in my mind, just because a child is born out of wed-lock or from a rape or any other way that would label them illegitimate, that does not imply that they should be free of the need for discipline.

But then, come to think of it that is not the point at all. The problem is not with the child but with the absence of a parent. The problem with illegitimacy is not the status of the child bringing shame on him but the lack of a loving parent around to train and mentor the child. I am now starting to see that what Paul is really saying here is, if you are not experiencing discipline/mentoring in your life you should be pitied greatly because you do not have a relationship with a Father who cares enough about you to raise you and invest time and effort teaching you the necessary skills for life.

Wow! I never realized how much my prejudice paradigm was keeping me from seeing this passage clearly until I asked that question. Instead of looking at this through the eyes of shame and condemnation, if I look at it with the view of the privileges enjoyed by children with good mentors for parents then the real social poverty of a person without a loving and skilled mentor becomes very sad. Being an illegitimate child is not to view the child with shame but with sadness for the absence of a good parent, even if they have people who claim to be their parents.

I now pray for reparenting for myself. I have been realizing my need of this over the past few years increasingly but I don't know how it is to take place. But God is in the business of providing all of our needs and as this is one of them I trust Him to supply it too. In fact, I believe that this passage is all about that very thing. It is really an invitation to enter more fully into the relationship of being mentored and reparented by God to fill in the huge gaps in our maturity that most of us suffer with.

In verse 9 I see a very significant distinction made. It is the comparison between our relationship with the father of our flesh and the father of our spirit. In many respects, many of the problems that come from our sinful flesh causing so much trouble inside of us often was received through the mistakes and sometimes even abusive ways that our flesh fathers trained us. God revealed centuries ago this natural principle in the second commandment when He said, You shall not worship them or serve them; for I, the LORD your God, am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the fathers on the children, on the third and the fourth generations of those who hate Me. (Exodus 20:5)

I realize that this text has been largely misinterpreted to mean God imposes punishment on succeeding generations for sins of the fathers. But when understood in the light of the truth about the real character of God and the principles of reality set up in creation, it will be seen that He is simply describing the natural consequences that flow through means of both genetics and environmental influences within families and cultures. When I looked up the word for visiting I found that it can easily mean simply observing, being aware of and not necessarily imposing arbitrarily.

The real jealousy of God is always in the context of His passionate love and desire to be fully reunited with all of His children in perfect love and harmony. There is no dark side with God and therefore everything like this must be considered in the light of the real truth about His feelings and desires toward us. In fact, it has been pointed out by some that this declaration is actually a statement of great mercy in that while God is fully aware and observant of the tragic generational effects of sinful tendencies, He limits those effects to only three or four generations instead of allowing them to produce much more chaos and pain.

So when I view these verses in Romans in light of this revelation about God's mercy, I can see that God is eager to stop the cycle of iniquity as quickly as possible that has been put in place by the messed up ways that our earthly fathers or mothers treated us and instilled false ideas about life and about God deep into our hearts. We absolutely do not have to wait for three or four generations to stop the cycle of evil. God's grace abounds much more where sin abounds and any one of us can enter into the reparenting, retraining relationship with God to be mentored, discipled (which is what real discipline is all about) and learn to grow up into the full image of God as demonstrated in the perfect example of Jesus.

I think the most significant point to understand in what this means is the designation of God as the Father of our spirit as opposed to the fathers of our flesh. The real problem we have above all else that we received from our fleshly fathers, is the distortion of reality through the terrible contamination and abuse of our spirit. It is in the arena of our spirit that God wants to work primarily and spirit is the root of the word spiritual. If we try to focus on goodness and righteousness and Godliness without primarily focusing on the condition and the healing of our spirit, then we will never be truly spiritual – we will only become religious. And God save us from religious people.

Verse 9 says here that the discipline we received from our earthly parents basically got our attention. That is within the definition of the Greek word translated respected in this verse. I think it is really a stretch to believe that the kind of discipline many of us received from our earthly parents of the flesh really produced the healthy kind of respect that we need to experience with God. But it usually at least got our attention, but often at the cost of our respect.

When we become intimidated by the counterfeit of true discipline (punishment and/or abuse) instead of becoming appreciative in love and gratitude, then chances are pretty high that the discipline was not the kind that God uses but was much more punitive and arbitrary in nature. That kind of discipline usually has more to do with the parent's feelings and frustrations or even fears of what others will think about them as a parent than it has to do with the healthy development and encouragement of positive traits of character in the heart of the child. Whenever “discipline” is administered with a spirit tainted with anger, selfishness or fear, then that “discipline” will produce fruit of iniquity in the heart of the child that is liable to pass on for another 3-4 generations unless it is checked sooner by the intervention of grace.

That kind of counterfeit discipline infects the spirit of the child with a subtle poison that corrupts them, distorts their view of reality and worst of all drives them farther away from the truth about what God is like, implanting more lies about Him deep into their psyche that act as fuel for triggers for the rest of their life. For the most effective way to implant a lie most deeply is to do it during a time of trauma. This has been one of Satan's most successful strategies in blinding our hearts away from the truth about God's perfect love and goodness and especially His discipline. It has produced the all-pervasive fear about God that permeates all of human thinking and all religions. As long as we associate our ideas of God's discipline with the false ideas we received from the counterfeit discipline we received from the parents of our flesh we can never be free from the false fears about Him that will always be the natural outworking of those lies.

For they disciplined us for a short time as seemed best to them, but He disciplines us for our good, so that we may share His holiness. (Hebrews 12:10)

Implicit in this verse is the assumption that quite likely the discipline we received from the father of our flesh was not necessarily good. I get that from the word but which is a word to denote contrast or an opposite. That is not to say that it was all bad. But because our parents were full of a lot of their own sinful baggage, they simply could not be the kind of parents or administer the healthy kind of discipline to the extent that we needed. And that is under the best of conditions. Many of us had parents who had so much baggage that their attempts at child-raising had much more detrimental effects than it had positive. And even though it was sometimes the best they could do given their own condition, it was far short of the life-giving, maturity-producing mentoring and correcting that God planned for us to experience.

This calls for a massive rethinking of the whole notion of discipline on the part of everyone. I am not advocating the total abandonment of all discipline in the raising of children for I know God is not teaching us that. But we need to examine far more intently the real truth about this subject and explore much deeper the ways that God disciples His children so that the way we treat those we are supposed to be mentoring is closer to the life-producing ways that God does. And primarily I believe that starts and ends with paying much more attention to the condition of our spirit and the condition of the spirit of the one we are disciplining. For any discipline done outside of a view to restoration of our spirit to the bonds of love and peace is a counterfeit and will produce more seeds of death and pain.

Paul goes even further to state here that the whole reason for real discipline is for us to be able to share in His holiness. That is very exciting to me after I have learned what the real meaning of that word is and what the deepest passion of God's heart is in this area. As I have written more extensively about on another site, I believe that God's greatest passion and ultimate goal that He can hardly wait to experience with us the the full exposure of the intensity of His holiness, passion and overwhelming love. That point in eternity is going to take place on the Day of Judgment which itself means revelation or revealing. God is intensely excited about that day that will fully transpire after the passing of the millenium and He is constantly referring to it in nearly every prophecy in the Bible. We have missed most of these references because of our distortions about God and our unbalanced obsession with the Second Coming as being the ultimate focal point in history. Anyway, if you want to read more along that line you can visit the other site and read more about it there.

But that is the light that I see again shining through the words in this verse. God is intensely passionate to restore as many people as possible to a state of safety so that they will be prepared to be glorified with Him in that day. He really wants everyone to enjoy that indescribable climax of joy and love but He is also painfully aware that many are refusing to believe the truth about Him and allow Him to save them. That process of restoration is called salvation, and it has to do with restoring the heart and the spirit into unity and peace and a condition of unselfishness that can never be accomplished or even approximated by the external attempts of religion.

Shall we not much rather be subject to the Father of spirits, and live?

The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy: I have come that they may have Life, and may have it in abundance. (John 10:10 WNT)

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Endurance

It is for discipline that you endure; God deals with you as with sons; for what son is there whom his father does not discipline? (Hebrews 12:7)

Endure trials for the sake of discipline. God is treating you as children; for what child is there whom a parent does not discipline? (Hebrews 12:7 NRSV)

Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. (James 1:2-3)

Maybe I am just too logically oriented, but my mind insists on trying to make sense out of this. I went and looked up a number of translations of Hebrews 12:7 and found that about half of them seem to focus on the discipline and the others seem to focus on endurance. I suppose at this point that I might be splitting hairs.

But what I do find interesting is that just a page or two farther in the Bible I find the above verse in James that seems to reverse the order quite distinctly. The verse in Hebrews equates discipline with trials, at least by implication, and says that we need endurance to face these trials of discipline. Then I find James saying that the trials themselves are what is needed to produce endurance.

I realize that these are not necessarily in conflict but are more likely to be complimentary to each other. It is rather like muscle training in the physical body. If a person decides they need to get serious about developing their flabby body they will need to start an exercise program of some sort. But very quickly they will find that they do not have much endurance and strength to do very much in their weak condition.

It is at that point that they are faced with a decision that may be a conflict between their emotional feelings and their intellectual desires. They intelligently want to be in better shape physically and want to move forward with their training program. At the same time their emotions are reacting to the intense soreness and pain from the unaccustomed use of muscles and the tendency is to back off and reconsider the whole idea. Those emotions can become very intense depending on the strength of the opposite motivations they have for continuing.

In this analogy, the trials and discipline are the exercises that are needed to develop strength. There is simply no other alternative to build muscles and tone them up into a healthier state than to use them regularly and intentionally. But what is also needed is endurance which is common knowledge in the exercise world. Endurance is really made up of at least two things as I think about it carefully.

Endurance is a measure of the ability of my muscles to continue doing something, especially when the onset of feelings of tiredness sets in. But it also involves the mind and its determination and willingness to keep exercising when other emotions and physical feelings are suggesting that I should give up and quit and forget this whole exercise idea. It involves the classic symptom of our desire for pain avoidance without enough consideration for anything else. That is when I need other, more compelling reasons besides my desire for comfort to keep me going so that I can become stronger. These are the elements that make up endurance.

Endurance is a very important ingredient that must be cultivated in tandem with strength if we are to succeed in a muscle-training program, whether it be physical or spiritual. And it looks to me like endurance is a multi-faceted thing involving not only the ability of the muscles but the condition of the will. If one part becomes too dominant over the other there may be problems to follow. If the muscles have the abilities to perform far beyond the desire of the will to push them, then the training will not accomplish what it should. Or if the will is not determined and insistent in the face of discomfort and pain then very little, if any progress will be accomplished.

On the other side, if the will is very strong but the muscles are not yet developed enough, and then if the willpower is used to push the muscles beyond what is safe for them at that point of development damage will likely occur and we will find ourselves in worse shape than before we started. The will-half of endurance must be in sync with the physical ability-half of endurance to accomplish real progress.

Now that I have unpacked the physical side of this equation to some extent, what can I learn from these verses and this analogy about discipline and endurance and my own relationship to this activity in my spiritual life?

What I seem to see emerging here is that events and circumstances that make me uncomfortable in life may quite likely be viewed by God as part of His plan for my strength and endurance training. But being a perfect Trainer He is not going to push me beyond my present abilities and cause undo damage in my life even though it may feel that way from the pain I am experiencing during the circumstance.

No testing has overtaken you that is not common to everyone. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tested beyond your strength, but with the testing he will also provide the way out so that you may be able to endure it. (1 Corinthians 10:13 NRSV)

But like any good training program, if the person being trained is not willing to engage their own will in cooperation with the program outlined by the trainer because of overwhelming fear of pain or maybe a distrust of the ability or motives of the trainer, then the goal of a healthier, stronger body with much more ability and endurance will never be accomplished. My own will has to be on board and synchronized with the will of the Trainer if my endurance is to keep me in the process.

As I have been learning more about the Theophostic process, which I believe is very inspired and in line with God's ways of healing and restoring us, I see the parallels quite easily here. God allows things to trigger me and I usually see these experiences as “trials” that threaten my well-being and disrupt my peace. But each time this happens I have a choice whether to view this event as something to be avoided, maneuvered away from or suppressed through denial or hypocrisy, or I can view it as an opportunity to take ownership of the “stuff” inside of me that is being triggered and honestly acknowledge it before God and ask for His truth to displace the deep, inner beliefs that are being exposed. I can either blame other people or circumstances to avoid facing the roots of my triggering or I can ask God to show me where the roots are that contain the false beliefs that provide the ammunition activating that trigger.

It is precisely during these moments when this whole business about trials, discipline and endurance come into play. If I am willing to stay in the process that God is taking me through and face the pain, or whatever other emotions come to the surface instead of avoiding them through denial or blame, I will begin to increase my level of endurance, both on the will-side of it and in the ability-side. Over time I will actually be more and more willing to view these events with the “joy” that James says I am to face them with instead of the fear and apprehension that I usually associate with them. If I see these experiences as evidence of God's work in my life and indicators that He is treating me as a real child, then I can have more reason to increase my willingness to endure and both my strength capacity and my endurance will increase.

If you do not have that discipline in which all children share, then you are illegitimate and not his children. (Hebrews 12:8 NRSV)

Another method of encouragement to stay “in the process” is the realization that this is not something abnormal or “bad” happening in my life but is something that anyone around me who is a real child of God and under His influence is also experiencing. I will not only be able to take courage from seeing others through this paradigm but I will be able to offer encouragement and perspective at times when they may need a stabilizing word of hope or a reminder of God's faithfulness.

I am confident of this, that the one who began a good work among you will bring it to completion by the day of Jesus Christ. (Philippians 1:6 NRSV)

Do not, therefore, abandon that confidence of yours; it brings a great reward. For you need endurance, so that when you have done the will of God, you may receive what was promised. (Hebrews 10:35-36 NRSV)

And let endurance have its full effect, so that you may be mature and complete, lacking in nothing. (James 1:4 NRSV)

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More About Discipline

And you have forgotten the exhortation which is addressed to you as sons, "MY SON, DO NOT REGARD LIGHTLY THE DISCIPLINE OF THE LORD, NOR FAINT WHEN YOU ARE REPROVED BY HIM; FOR THOSE WHOM THE LORD LOVES HE DISCIPLINES, AND HE SCOURGES EVERY SON WHOM HE RECEIVES." (Hebrews 12:5-6)

Why would I faint when reproved by God? I think one prominent reason would be if I thought that His discipline was coming in the same way and with the same spirit that the abusive discipline was administered to me in my childhood. That would be a big cause for becoming very discouraged and not seeing any useful outcome for the discipline. It would only reinforce the negative ideas about God induced in me through years of faulty discipline.

I believe that it is only after I begin to really get a glimpse of the real truth about God and the ways in which He relates to His children in contrast with the mistakes of others who have used counterfeit methods that I will be able to accept “healthy” discipline from God without fainting. It is only when a person accrues a certain amount of confidence in the trustworthiness of a superior that they can entrust themselves to the various means necessary for mentoring including discipline. If I have not first learned to trust the heart of God and His unfailing goodness and His good desires for my life, then I will be too suspicious and fearful to trust Him when circumstances seem to scream that He is trying to punish me someway for some reason other than good intentions toward me. It will only reflect the tragic and twisted notions about God's wrath so prevalent in the world today.

For those whom the Lord loves He disciplines. At first glance this seems to ring with the same hypocrisy that it had whenever my Dad would say those words about the reason he wanted to beat me. Somehow it did not correspond very well with the spirit that I sensed from him or the way that he was relating to me. I am not saying at all that my Dad did not love me in some way – I am very sure he did. But at the same time, using that reasoning to justify venting his frustration and anger on me through whippings was not an effective expression of his love and did not even accomplish what he hoped for. I now realize that the reason he did that was for lack of knowing what else to do from his own lack of proper mentoring and he was at the limit of his abilities to know how to properly express love in the raising of children. He had never experienced love in his life, had not even had a father of his own to relate to, and therefore did not know what it looked or felt like to be nurtured and mentored properly. This was the best he knew how to do and was also very common in the culture in which he lived, but that did not prevent it from badly distorting the image of God in my soul. Very sadly I realize that I did not do much better myself with my own children.

It is not only until very recent years that I have begun to perceive the radical difference of the passionate love that God has for me in contrast to the dark, distorted methods sometimes used by my parents and other authorities. The more I learn about the startling truths of the real gospel the more I see the ugliness of human counterfeits and substitutes of that love. But the more I learn about the beauty, attractiveness and trustworthiness of God the easier it is for me to trust Him when my feelings are telling me its not really true. Its like learning to believe the sun is still really shining even when it has been overcast for days. That is what I think this phrase is talking about, do not faint when you are reproved by Him.

It is for discipline that you endure; God deals with you as with sons; for what son is there whom his father does not discipline? (Hebrews 12:7)

I find the first part of this verse very curious. I think I am going to wait and see what else God wants to show me about this because it seems to be one of those places in the Bible that is like a trap door hiding all sorts of interesting things just underneath it. If you have any ideas feel free to share them with me. God can talk with you just as quickly as with me if you are interested in listening.

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Healthy Discipline

I'm still working on unpacking this passage about discipline in Hebrews 12. I decided to go look up the word in Greek and compare it to the Greek word for disciple. I have been told all my life that the two words were so similar, at least in English, that they carry much of the same meaning. But that has always been an observation that I have never personally checked out for myself. So I decided that it is time to go see for myself what the similarities and differences are in these two words.

At first I began to wonder if they were very related at all as I looked at their definitions. The Greek words themselves looked very different. But then I saw what was going on. The word translated “disciple” simply means to be a learner or a pupil, a student. That is pretty straightforward. But when I looked at the word for discipline there were a lot more options. When there are a lot of options there is also a lot of room for a translator's own preferences and prejudices to leak through in how they interpret a word or passage. But it can also leave room to see how an alternative meaning can sometimes better reveal the truth about God that has been hidden by someone else's bias.

Some of the potential meanings for the original word translated “discipline” do involve punishment, but I found interesting nuances when I looked through the root words that make up the Greek word. The primary meaning seems to have to do with training and educating someone. The references to the painful part of it denote that the violence of the smiting, when it must be done, is conservative and less than other potential violence. But primarily it seems that this word has more to do with training and educating a person more than creating pain for them.

What I see when comparing these two words is the two sides of the same concept. The disciple is the one who is the recipient of the training and education, and the discipline comes from the one who is doing the training and educating. It does not seem to be implicit that there has to be any smiting or punishment going on in this process, but if it is necessary it will always be very measured, restrained and deliberate for only assisting in the training and education process, not for punitive reasons. I believe that it would be safe to say, especially given the character of the Teacher in this case, that any pain that has to be inflicted to accomplish the education needed in our lives will only be to the extent necessary to bring good growth and healthy advancement. There would be no abuse of power or coercion or punitiveness to this process. Only that which would be for the benefit and maturing of the recipient would be allowed.

While that is not something I would clamor for, it is a vast improvement over the abusive punishments that many human fathers inflict on their children. Much of that is done as a means of venting the anger or frustrations of the parents on the children or trying to force their desires on their children instead of carefully trying to help them learn skills of self-control and healthy thinking and real maturity.

In reality, if we want to know what good discipline looks like, we would find the best example in the way Jesus related to His personal disciples. That was the perfect model of a match between disciple/student and discipliner/teacher. If we carefully analyze and learn from the ways Jesus treated His followers in all sorts of varied circumstances and especially in times when they were making mistakes, we will begin to get an idea of what healthy discipline looks like.

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What is Good Discipline?

(This post is only one part of a whole series of writings that I am “experiencing” in my journey through chapter 12 of Hebrews. I felt convicted a few weeks ago to jump into this search for my bitter roots in my journey to freedom and I was directed by the Spirit to this chapter as the context in which God would reveal some things I need to know to help me to freedom. Because of the sensitive nature of this journey I have not felt free at this point to post most of the things I have written because I need to allow my heart to feel safe enough to show me its true feelings without fear of exposure to insensitive others at this point. Maybe later when it has experienced more healing and feels stronger and safer I may be able to post the whole series. But for now I will only put out the things that it gives me permission to post, and even then with some trepidation.)

(Hebrews 12:5-11)

While it is true that discipline in the life of a person shows that they are a legitimate child, if their experience consists of not much other than discipline then something would seem to be quite wrong about their relationship to the one disciplining them. Any family where discipline is the main feature is usually a very legalistic, perfectionistic-oriented family that is not very healthy. When relationships revolve more around discipline and punishments than they do around positive, joy-building activities, then it is very likely that the discipline is being administered in the wrong spirit and is not having the effect that it should have if done properly.

If discipline is not producing a noticeable change in our life then either the administrator is not doing it properly or the recipient is resisting it all too effectively. Since God, the perfect parent, is also perfect love and all of His discipline is done totally in that context, then if we are resistant to true love (not the redefinition of the word used by abusive parents) then we will be hardening our heart and stiffening our necks in rebellion against the holiness of God. For this passage says that this is the purpose of God's discipline, to make us partakers of His holiness.

I know that when I was growing up my attitude of rebellion was often met with a reflective and similar attitude from those in authority over me. They reacted to my resistance by employing even stronger measures of arbitrary force without real love for me which in turn only produced more rebellion and resentment which simply intensified the vicious cycle. To justify their use of abusive methods against me they claimed that they were only doing it in love. But their spirit did not convey that message and so it created a lot of bitterness about authority that became my inner picture of what God was like and strongly taints my relationships yet today.

But since God is a perfect parent He is not going to administer His discipline in ineffective ways or in ways designed to force and break my will or produce fear like earthly parents often do. God does not want us to have a spirit of fear. (2 Tim. 1:7) Fear is something He repeatedly commands us to not have throughout the Bible, so why would He use discipline to instill it into us and then command us not to have it? No, God is not like our earthly parents and He does not discipline us like they did which was too often more for their own benefit more than for ours.

It says here that one of the objects of His discipline is so that we may share in His holiness. Holiness is something we have very little, if any, understanding of if stripped of its legalistic connotations. But holiness is one of the primary descriptions of God so whatever it is it describes who He is – it is His identity. So logically thinking we can conclude that discipline from God is designed to bring our identity into harmony with His identity. That really means restoring the image of God back to its original condition in which we were created six thousand years ago.

If all I have known or seen is corrupted ideas of discipline, then how can I ever cooperate properly with the good kind of discipline from God when I don't even know what that means or feels like? I will naturally apply the assumptions about discipline to things that have happened to me and then come to false conclusions about my experiences and about God because of my twisted ideas of what constitutes discipline. If real and value-enhancing discipline is something that is outside my internal definitions, if it is simply not found in my database of knowledge based on personal experience, then it will be extremely difficult to either respond positively to it when it happens since I won't recognize it, or I will mistake things coming from the enemy as coming from God because it resonates with the distorted ideas about discipline that I am familiar with.

But even though this presents a problem for God I am also quite sure He is not baffled by it or surprised and confused. He knows my predicament and lack of context for understanding how to relate to good discipline but He also has very effective means of dealing with that obstacle of which I know nothing.

As I think about it I realize that one of the most important goals for good discipline is not to get me to trust in the plans or methods of God that I can see are reasonable and make sense but that I learn to trust the heart of God above everything else, and especially above my own limited knowledge of Him and of truth. If I begin to trust my knowledge more than His heart that is far beyond my knowledge and understanding, then I am headed into more trouble and confusion and may need more discipline to get my focus back on His heart more than in His ways.

I feel like these things are coming to me in real time and I am very grateful for God's willingness to share them with me in my search for real understanding of this subject that has so much pain and bitterness attached to it in my life. I stop at times and ask God if my heart is hearing this as much as my head is enjoying the dialog. It is difficult for me to know what my heart is doing as it is mostly out of reach of my conscious mind. It has remained hidden for most of my life in a prison of fear, dread and apprehension. It feels safer staying hidden in the dungeon even though it becomes extremely lonely at times, because it thinks that staying there is safer than coming out into the open where it may encounter even more abuse, shame and rejection.

It is very difficult for me to get in touch with my real feelings. They are very slippery and evasive and I usually only catch a passing glimpse of them, like a rare bird that avoids detection or frightened deer that stay far away from civilization. Consequently it has been a long and sometimes discouraging journey to draw my heart out and offer it to the Doctor for repair and restoration. I have not yet met a human with the skill and sensitivity needed to create a safe enough atmosphere for it to come out of hiding very far. My heart is completely convinced that no human exists like that and that any human that it might trust very much will sooner or later betray its trust and will once again abuse and assault it for selfish exploitation.

There it goes again into hiding. It was like it came out for a few moments to tell me what it felt and then disappeared into hiding again. Well, I appreciate whatever I can learn in those moments when I can really feel genuine, but they usually only happen when I am alone. I am overcoming much of my fear, at least the conscious ones, about God and I think my heart is very slowly trying to trust Him more intentionally. But trying to bond with other faulty humans who are guaranteed to make mistakes is another thing altogether. I logically know that I am supposed to have some kind of relationships like that but I find it impossible to establish any very effectively at this point. I don't fully understand why but I am getting clues here and there.

I want to experience healthy, positive bonding with other hearts as I was designed to do and am told that I am supposed to do. That is the only way I think I will ever truly feel satisfaction at the deepest levels. But my fear is still way out of proportion to my intense cravings for satisfying relationships so I remain isolated but hopeful that God has surprises in this area for me. According to the things I read in His word His plan involves living more transparently within the context of the body of Christ – whatever that really is. I am trusting Him to show me where and who that is and then how I am to connect properly with the rest of them.

Of course another big problem (but not for God) is that everyone else who wants to be part of that body is also fearful and carrying around confused ideas of discipline and proper bonding and so are sure to make mistakes in their attempts to bond just like I do. Because of my deep desire to bond with others I notice that I often do impulsive things that I later (or sooner) deeply regret. Sometimes those things cause intense pain to others in their inability to read the true intentions and desires of my hungry heart. That is very often the case. But as a result my heart withdraws again and tends to vow never to try to come out again in the open because someone may get hurt again, either me or the other person or both.

What the consistent factor is in these scenarios is the avoidance of pain. I logically realize that and can declare that it should not be the determining factor in my decisions, but that is all a bunch of absurd nonsense if you were to hear what my heart really believes. And I suspect the same is felt by the vast majority of the people in the world. That is not to say that it is right, it is just the normal reaction of a heart that still is in need of a great deal of healing and wholeness.

I just realized that that very point takes me back to the problem of accepting or even comprehending the nature of good discipline. If my heart has been thoroughly trained to avoid pain above everything else then it also has been diabolically trained to avoid even the pain that might be involved in the good discipline brought into my life by the One who loves me intensely and will never abuse me. It is just like the evil one to set this trap inside of my heart to prevent me from growing into the loving relationships that God intended for me to enjoy not only with Him but with all of His children. If I keep pain avoidance as a higher priority than maturing and growing and thriving, then I will remain stunted in my growth and imprisoned in my heart. Again, my head can begin to accept this but my heart needs quite a bit more assurance before it is willing to buy into this proposition.

It is becoming more clear to me that the missing ingredient in abusive discipline is real and obvious love. The abuse of that word in the administration of abusive forms of so-called “discipline” has also severely damaged my heart's understanding of that word too. Because I have so little comprehension or memories of what real love might look or feel like I have no context in which to believe and accept the idea of healthy discipline. If love and caring and respect are missing in the spirit of anyone who is exercising discipline in the life of another, then that discipline is going to produce the wrong results and the heart is going to suffer more damage than good from the experience. And since very few of us have ever experienced good discipline from a loving parent that accomplished its purpose of drawing us closer to their heart, then God has a very big job to reverse that tragic damage to our psyche and bring us into close relationship with Him. And I have to confess that I have passed on just as much malfunction from skewed ideas of discipline as what I received myself.

It is quite clear here in Hebrews that God fully intends to use discipline in the transformational process in our lives. I believe that He is only going to administer the right kind of discipline, though it may very often seem like the wrong kind primarily because of all the baggage in our hearts described above. I also believe that quite possibly we are too quick to label experiences in our lives as discipline from God based on our false notions of God when in fact they may actually be attacks by the enemy posing as Divine punishments and trying to reimpose and reinforce our twisted picture of discipline and our old feelings about an abusive God. Satan is not about to stand by and allow us an easy transition into the realization of God's beauty and perfect love and compassion for us without trying desperately to keep us locked in the lies about God that he has spent so long weaving around us to keep our hearts imprisoned in fear. This is now getting to the very core of what the Great War is all about.

It just came to me that my emerging understanding about the differences between the legal model of thinking and perceiving reality and God's true way of relating based on family-oriented relationships can help me understand what is involved in correct discipline. Abusive discipline that produces fear and often rebellion is arbitrary in nature. It is really punishment and not true discipline but it likes to use that term. God's kind of discipline is actually very full of grace. Let me explain.

In God's view of reality and the ways in which He operates, sin produces natural consequences that are not arbitrary at all in nature. These consequences are not imposed by God unless you think that He is responsible because He set up things to work that way. If you violate the law of gravity by stepping over the edge of a dangerous precipice without proper precautions you will be sure to experience the natural consequences. God is not imposing them on you arbitrarily. You committed the act and you experienced the natural result. The very same principle applies to all of God's laws, for all of His laws are descriptive in nature, not proscriptive like our legal model produces.

So as I am starting to just now see, whenever I suffer the natural consequences of violating the principles of reality that were put in place by God, I am setting myself up to suffer the full consequences of those violations. But that creates a much bigger problem. For if I were allowed to experience the full consequences of my mistakes and bad decisions then most of the time they would ultimately and often very quickly lead to my demise and then I would not be able to learn from them or grow into more maturity through the experience.

This is now where I am beginning to see what may be involved in the good discipline of God. He does indeed allow me to experience the natural consequences of my mistakes to some extent, but He always limits those consequences in order to protect and preserve me so that instead of raw justice (the natural results of contradicting reality) terminating my existence I am given opportunity to respond to this demonstration of His grace but also learn lessons from the pain of the limited amount of consequence that I do experience.

Given this view of discipline, it can be seen that instead of imposing arbitrary punishments on me for disobeying His orders and rules, God is constantly at work to shield me with His grace from experiencing the full effects of my many mistakes. And again, those consequences are not of an arbitrary nature any more than getting hurt by gravity is arbitrary and artificial; but they are unavoidable results of breaking the order and principles that constitute true reality as it has been created to operate. If it were not for the protective love and intervention of God's grace to prevent me from proverbially hitting the bottom of the canyon lethally when I stepped off the cliff each time I sin, then I could not survive to learn the truth about His love and just as importantly learn not to get so close to the edge of cliffs in the first place.

I realize that I have heard this explanation to some extent in the past, but because the context and the condition of my spirit was so conflicted with the message I could never really hear the truth in it before. It always sounded very arbitrary in nature because that is the only way I perceived God. But with God's recent revelations about Him self to my heart, it is only now just beginning to make sense to me and my heart is actually listening to this quite intently and with a feeling of hopefulness. I sense that I want this truth to become a much more permanent part of my perception of reality and my view of God. I have never understood grace very well as it was a topic generally avoided in my culture so this is really helping me perceive it more clearly.

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